Been acting so different lately. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Lack of sleep. Busy. Always wanting to do something. Stress. Hating everything.
I’m done with the self-pity and feeling sorry for myself.
I’m stronger than that.
I can’t wait until change comes, I have to go looking for it.
I’m ready for 2013.
I’m going to write this in case the person that I want to read this, does. I’m so sad. I feel like I do all these cute things for you and I get nothing in return. I know expecting stuff is selfish and wrong but…come on. I know we have a high school relationship but if you want to have a relationship with me I think a little more effort should take place. I don’t want this to be one-sided. You know I love you so much. You’re my best friend. Just please, give me something. Make me feel special. Don’t make me think this relationship is all for the benefits. I miss the old us, but I’m looking for the future for a better us.
Is this really what I want?